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[Kyliee]

Hi guys, so I’ve just recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. I’m constantly finding myself on massive high’s and extremely low low’s. my mood fluctuates pretty quickly and it’s becoming really exhausting. I can’t seem to stay in one mood for a long period of time. Does anyone else struggle with this too? I also become really depressed to the point where I’m lonely because the friends I do have I feel like they don’t understand me and secretly they’re judging me.

In all seriousness I actually feel completely alone. 
anyone else.?? 

[milomaniac]

Kyliee! 

Thanks for sharing this - I feel basically the same way.

I also feel like no one around me is emotionally available to be able to help me, it’s really lonely.

I’m also aware BPD can make us a lil paranoid about the people around us, and they probably not judging us like we think.

But i’m glad we’re able to connect here and feel a little less alone in this x

[NatureLover]

Hi and welcome, @Kyliee , it's good to have you here 🙂

I don't have BPD but will tag some people: @BPDSurvivor  @tyme 

Welcome also @milomaniac , good to see you also. 

A handy forum tip is if you type @ and then click on a name in the drop-down box, that person will get a notification and won't miss your reply.

[__Needy__]

This is really hard to live with

[RiverSeal]

Hi @__Needy__ 

Thank you for posting on the Forums!

Yes, BPD can be challenging but with support and connection to peers, we can still live a meaningful and purposeful life. Have you connected with SANE before?

Nice to have you in our community here online. 

Take care

RiverSeal

[__Needy__]

THanks @RiverSeal this is my first interaction. 

It's so helpful to know there is support here. I really want to encourage my partner to join the family and friends support forums too.

I could really do with an online check in buddy to give each other regular support -especially when I get trapped in my anger and projection episodes.

[RiverSeal]

Hi @__Needy__  the Forums community is a great place to find connection and meet people to check in with regularly. Take a look around the discussions and get involved by tagging people like you did with me here. 

Great to have you  in the community!

Take care

RiverSeal

[Phoenixx]

Re: I have a diagnosis of BPD with ADHD, my perception of myself fluctuates daily at least 4 times. Whwere I alternate my self view of being an okay person to disliking myself , then back again.
I never get a high elevated mood. My baseline  high happiness is about 40% where I feel some good feelings concepts of myself, but never get elated at anything, so 40% is my top feeling good base point. Still lower than expected. From there I drop below and never go higher than 40%.

My daughter has bi-polar, we have some similar symptoms, but she has highly elevated moods that reach full speed 100% operating peak 24/7 stays there for days more like weeks, then flops to really low, non functioning from physical mental exhaustion … doing better with medications.

Check out Bi-polar Disorder.

Am wondering how long your highs last for?